Quick update soon but just for now a happy new years!!! And the great news is my visa came in today!!! :)
South Africa on the horizon! :)
God bless you all this year!
Jessie
Friday, December 31, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Pack it up.Keep moving.
I don't know how I feel today...but what I feel is that I feel.
As the time to move to Africa approaches I find myself more and more torn.
Here comes adventure number three.
Can I do it?
I have to...this is the last time I apply for a term less than five years to Africa...I hope.
I am getting ready to leave Jubilee...I'm not ready for that.
To leave anyone.To leave everything.
It paralyzes me to think that I didn't prepare.
I spent too much time loving.
Too much time laughing.
Dancing.
Hugging.
Singing.
I am not prepared.
Its alright though.I'll rub that red sand in my wounds...and sing myself to healing.
I have to.
Pack em up...keep going.
What if we crossed the Red Sea but not in a straight line?? But God Altered the water for safety from Pharaoh's View...just wondering....
I leave you with Today's song...
Moses Don't Get Lost by Duhks.
Based on an old soul song.
Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses take my hand | In that red sea
Take me out of Egypt land | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses part the waters | In that red sea
Take us to the lands of our fathers | In that red sea
Moses, Moses, Pharoah coming | In that red sea
Don't you hear those horses running | In that red sea
Promised land is just across | Across that red sea
Moses, Moses don't get lost | In that red sea
Stop and talk about your host got lost, got lost, got lost
Talkin' about your host got lost | In that red sea
Stop and talk about your host got lost, got lost, got lost
Talkin' about your host got lost | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Yeah, ol Pharoah and the host got lost, got lost, got lost
Pharoah and the host got lost| In that red sea
Yeah, ol Pharoah and the host got lost, got lost, got lost
Pharoah and the host got lost| In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
In that red sea
In that red sea
As the time to move to Africa approaches I find myself more and more torn.
Here comes adventure number three.
Can I do it?
I have to...this is the last time I apply for a term less than five years to Africa...I hope.
I am getting ready to leave Jubilee...I'm not ready for that.
To leave anyone.To leave everything.
It paralyzes me to think that I didn't prepare.
I spent too much time loving.
Too much time laughing.
Dancing.
Hugging.
Singing.
I am not prepared.
Its alright though.I'll rub that red sand in my wounds...and sing myself to healing.
I have to.
Pack em up...keep going.
What if we crossed the Red Sea but not in a straight line?? But God Altered the water for safety from Pharaoh's View...just wondering....
I leave you with Today's song...
Moses Don't Get Lost by Duhks.
Based on an old soul song.
Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses take my hand | In that red sea
Take me out of Egypt land | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses part the waters | In that red sea
Take us to the lands of our fathers | In that red sea
Moses, Moses, Pharoah coming | In that red sea
Don't you hear those horses running | In that red sea
Promised land is just across | Across that red sea
Moses, Moses don't get lost | In that red sea
Stop and talk about your host got lost, got lost, got lost
Talkin' about your host got lost | In that red sea
Stop and talk about your host got lost, got lost, got lost
Talkin' about your host got lost | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Yeah, ol Pharoah and the host got lost, got lost, got lost
Pharoah and the host got lost| In that red sea
Yeah, ol Pharoah and the host got lost, got lost, got lost
Pharoah and the host got lost| In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Oh Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
Moses, Moses, don't get lost | In that red sea
Smite your rod and come across | In that red sea
In that red sea
In that red sea
Sunday, November 28, 2010
I wasn't prepared for this...
Flume
I am my mother's only one
It's enough
I wear my garment so it shows
Now you know
Only love is all maroon
Gluey feathers on a flume
Sky is womb and she's the moon
I am my mother on the wall, with us all
I move in water, shore to shore
Nothing's more
Only love is all maroon
Lapping lakes like leary loons
Leaving rope burns
Reddish ruse
Only love is all maroon
Gluey feathers on a flume
Sky is womb and she's the moon
Music has been way too much to my senses lately. I'm not sure how to express it but I need to just lock myself up in a room and confront my memories with songs that I just.can't.shake. Words sung that are like nails on a chalkboard to my heart. Can I stop listening to music? Can I stop feeling? Can I live life as a light wave and ignore the fact that my being makes a sound in the universe? I can't. So here goes nothing. And today...I start with you Bon Iver.
....Someday my pain, someday my pain
Will mark you
Harness your blame, harness your blame
And walk through....
I am my mother's only one
It's enough
I wear my garment so it shows
Now you know
Only love is all maroon
Gluey feathers on a flume
Sky is womb and she's the moon
I am my mother on the wall, with us all
I move in water, shore to shore
Nothing's more
Only love is all maroon
Lapping lakes like leary loons
Leaving rope burns
Reddish ruse
Only love is all maroon
Gluey feathers on a flume
Sky is womb and she's the moon
Music has been way too much to my senses lately. I'm not sure how to express it but I need to just lock myself up in a room and confront my memories with songs that I just.can't.shake. Words sung that are like nails on a chalkboard to my heart. Can I stop listening to music? Can I stop feeling? Can I live life as a light wave and ignore the fact that my being makes a sound in the universe? I can't. So here goes nothing. And today...I start with you Bon Iver.
....Someday my pain, someday my pain
Will mark you
Harness your blame, harness your blame
And walk through....
Friday, November 26, 2010
Its just too far...
vul·ner·a·ble[vuhl-ner-uh-buhl]
–adjective
1.capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt: a vulnerable part of the body.2.open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc.: anargument vulnerable to refutation; He is vulnerable to bribery.3. open to assault; difficult to defend: a vulnerablebridge
The first being the one I resonate with. It is such a scary thing to be vulnerable. What if things don't work out? What if I'm left to fight my fears alone??? What if I fail and no one is there to catch me?? When preparing to embark on this journey home. I fear that I will find the true meaning of home too late. If I travel the world and scatter my heart in the hands of the women, children and fathers and mothers and sisters and brothers that I meet...what will be left for me?? Is there suppose to be something left?? If home is where heart is where is home for me??? So many questions I have....so much love I have to embrace and so much I have to let go. How to know when to be strong...and when to just lay your burden down and trust others to carry you when you just can't anymore. When to know to lay it down and carry them....
Gonna lay my burden down
Gonna lay my body in the ground
Cold clay against my skin
But I don't care at all
Can't seem to find my piece of mind
So with the earth I'll lay entwined
Six feet underground
My feet are warm and dry
When I get to the other side
I'll put your picture way up high
But I'm not coming back to you
It's just too far
If I was cast off on the sea
Would you come and look for me
Or would you just let me sink
Beneath the waves so blue
What if I had learned to fly
Fly all night till day drew nigh
Touch down upon a branch and
Scan the crowd for you
When I touch my feet on the land
I'll kiss your lips and take you in
But you know I'm not here to stay
It's just too far
Darling can't you hear me cry
My bones are broke
My tongue is tied
The moon is swaying back and forth
Against the navy sky
Is all I can see
My body is trembling on my knees
Just have a little mercy on me
Run away and hide
When I sleep the angels sing
But I cannot hear a thing
Eyes close
Dreaming of better days gone by
When I wake the trumpets play
And I'm standing at the gates
Fall down and joy
I know my race has just been won
When I was young my momma would say
Well live is hard, but that's OK
If you can make it through the day
It's not that far
No, it's not that far
Lay My Burden Down
By Alison Krauss
Click link to hear the song its awesome.
–adjective
1.capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt: a vulnerable part of the body.2.open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc.: anargument vulnerable to refutation; He is vulnerable to bribery.3. open to assault; difficult to defend: a vulnerablebridge
The first being the one I resonate with. It is such a scary thing to be vulnerable. What if things don't work out? What if I'm left to fight my fears alone??? What if I fail and no one is there to catch me?? When preparing to embark on this journey home. I fear that I will find the true meaning of home too late. If I travel the world and scatter my heart in the hands of the women, children and fathers and mothers and sisters and brothers that I meet...what will be left for me?? Is there suppose to be something left?? If home is where heart is where is home for me??? So many questions I have....so much love I have to embrace and so much I have to let go. How to know when to be strong...and when to just lay your burden down and trust others to carry you when you just can't anymore. When to know to lay it down and carry them....
Gonna lay my burden down
Gonna lay my body in the ground
Cold clay against my skin
But I don't care at all
Can't seem to find my piece of mind
So with the earth I'll lay entwined
Six feet underground
My feet are warm and dry
When I get to the other side
I'll put your picture way up high
But I'm not coming back to you
It's just too far
If I was cast off on the sea
Would you come and look for me
Or would you just let me sink
Beneath the waves so blue
What if I had learned to fly
Fly all night till day drew nigh
Touch down upon a branch and
Scan the crowd for you
When I touch my feet on the land
I'll kiss your lips and take you in
But you know I'm not here to stay
It's just too far
Darling can't you hear me cry
My bones are broke
My tongue is tied
The moon is swaying back and forth
Against the navy sky
Is all I can see
My body is trembling on my knees
Just have a little mercy on me
Run away and hide
When I sleep the angels sing
But I cannot hear a thing
Eyes close
Dreaming of better days gone by
When I wake the trumpets play
And I'm standing at the gates
Fall down and joy
I know my race has just been won
When I was young my momma would say
Well live is hard, but that's OK
If you can make it through the day
It's not that far
No, it's not that far
Lay My Burden Down
By Alison Krauss
Click link to hear the song its awesome.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
The Journey Begins!
Dear Readers,
I have never been inspired to begin or keep up with a blog until now. I realized the other day that in about a month I will be leaving Comer, Georgia and beginning my physical journey back to Africa. Beginning in Georgia, on to Florida,St.Louis, Houston,New York, London and then finally Johannesburg,South Africa. I'm not sure where my heart will be then in relationship to all its going through now...leaving friends, family etc...but all I know is the road has been placed before me once again...and my heart is going back home.
Stay tuned!
I have never been inspired to begin or keep up with a blog until now. I realized the other day that in about a month I will be leaving Comer, Georgia and beginning my physical journey back to Africa. Beginning in Georgia, on to Florida,St.Louis, Houston,New York, London and then finally Johannesburg,South Africa. I'm not sure where my heart will be then in relationship to all its going through now...leaving friends, family etc...but all I know is the road has been placed before me once again...and my heart is going back home.
Stay tuned!
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